[OldCoder]

Yes, it's relevant. It was part of the reason that I never built a social network. Additionally, in some face to face interviews, it was a significant factor.

However, in recent months, I've done better. Four random strangers that I've talked to this year, in a bar, a photo processing shop, a LiveScan facility, and a phone store, all talked about doing business with me. Whether or not anything comes of it, this is encouraging.

It had to do with coming across as confident and relaxed. If you Google (tm) the article "Topological Theory of Autism", you'll read about something called compensating. I think that, as I speak with more people, I'm improving at that.

[humanrebar]

Perhaps you should talk to subject matter expert about whether you apply for social security disability. From what I read, it's possible to qualify if you are unable to find work due to mental health issues. Good on you if you'd rather make it on your own, but it's better than being homeless and it's pretty much what the program is for.

[ef47d35620c1]

You are on the path to understanding why this is difficult for you. If you touch it deeply and think a great deal on it, you can learn to acknowledge and overcome it.

You may like to read some of Thich Nhat Hanh's books. He teaches people how to transform their suffering into peace and joy.