| > I read articles ... and then proceed to ... ignore it. > ...unable to motivate myself to actually go > don't even feel in control of your own thoughts > I always fall back into the same patterns. I'm not a doctor or professional, so take this with a huge grain of salt and get help outside of HN: Did you consider having adult ADHD? - maybe the inattentive type? Do you have some disciplines where you still able to excel besides having problems with motivation and procrastination everywhere else? I've lately read an adult ADHD CBT therapy book¹ and I was really surprised how it explained a lot of things in my life. Depression is a common co-morbidity and while I'm more on the anxiety side your description sounds pretty familiar. Knowing about these things accepting that I have to attack certain things from a different angle helps me a lot recently, I also don't feel like a stranger in the world anymore - I'm almost 30 years old and I have not much academically to show for in my life. Maybe it's bullshit and you are better off ignoring it, but from your description I'd considering checking that angle too. 1: http://libgen.org/book/index.php?md5=b8e7b20b602fee2b1bdb1b1... |
Try a quiz; it's no diagnosis, but you could bring it up with your doctor if your result shows that you may have some form of ADHD. http://psychcentral.com/addquiz.htm