[Dewie]

I don't think I ever fixed, made or was curious about such things when I was a child. So I guess I'll just have to accept my fate of becoming a corporate programming drone that hackers will secretly or not so snicker at for being so clueless and unproductive, and to become unemployable or change careers at 40 because of my relative lack of passion for the craft. At least I've been warned.

[aaronem]

Well, you could take everything incredibly personally for no obvious reason, or you could consider that no one is actually saying you have to be a "hacker" so-called to participate in the industry.

[Dewie]

I think you misunderstand me. I said that I would end up as a "corporate programming drone" - clearly a programming drone is part of the industry. What I'm saying is that, while I could probably get into the industry (if I could stay there for my whole professional life I'm a little uncertain about - see my OP), it seems that I would forever be an inferior programmer because I don't have the necessary passion to become a great programmer (or "great hacker" - and I realize that they are not necessarily the exact same thing), as implied by the OP of this post and some/many others. But I want to devote my professional life to something that I'm sufficiently passionate about and where I can make a positive impact, not just be another worker bee that is kind of doing an okay job but is vastly inferior to a lot of the truly passionate programmers, who occasionally look down the nose at me for not being devoted or skilled enough. Is this so ambitious? I don't think so - I think many people deep down want to make an impact. I don't have ambitions of being the best, or require it. I don't even require that I have to be more than average. But I want to make a tangible impact, I want to feel a purpose. I don't want to wake up in 10 years and realize that my passion was simply not sufficient, that most or many of my peers are far surpassing me in my craft, and I simply have to accept a lifetime of inferiority, or to maybe have to change my career entirely.

I'm not out of university yet, and I think that I've found something that I can devote my career to. But then I read about these people that make me question my passion, because really, it can be hard to gauge how passionate you are compared to most other people. And if it turns out that they're insinuations are correct - that I really don't have the sufficient drive and passion to make a satisfying career out of this - maybe I'll need to get out now...

It's a kind of existential question: who am I and where do I belong? But if you want to dismiss this as just being overly sensitive, that's fine.

[scott_s]

If you have a drive to make an impact and to feel a purpose, then I think you'll be fine. I think those traits go a long way.