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IMHO you have a comfortable cushion, and some time to make careful, thoughtful decisions. Some professional financial planning could set you up to relieve yourself of some worries. Having done phase 1 (acquiring retirement money), you can take some time and assess what you love in life, or to explore what that means. Phase 2 might be family, or it might be personal growth, or it might be an adventure, or investing, or maybe as simple as a soul-searing eye-widening scary-ass meeting with either Paul Graham or Mark Cuban. Something to consider. Short term, though, the sincere, hopeful recommendations by others here that you look into discreet professional counseling to break your logjam and apparent depression, and to help you make your way from phase 1 to whatever your next phase is, are not wrong. You might need the therapy after meeting with Graham or Cuban. Best wishes for your breakthrough.

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I'm not scared of meeting Cuban. I am scared of meeting Graham.

Cuban is not that smart in my eyes, Graham is really smart, but I'm not sure Graham realizes how smart he is.

How arrogant is that?