[horofx]

Actually you have a pretty good amount of money for your age, if you keep going like this I'm sure you will get what you want in maybe 20 years.

But seriously. Money is shit. What EVERYONE is striving for is experience. You want to feel the experience of boarding that private jet, gamble 10mi or something.

The experience you are wanting to have is very empty and there's way better stuff to do out there. Learn to draw, paint, do something you are proud of. Be the CEO of a big company. Help homeless people. The experience is what matters, go after it.

[beginagain]

I want to help who I empathize with. But if I do not love myself, how am I supposed to love others?

I cannot help poor people, I do not empathize with them. I can help broken people, but how am I to help them when I cannot help myself?