| You have two options! 1) Self Help Industry, multi-billion dollar industry preying on un-diagnosed mental health issues! Do you still bad? You're not trying hard enough! 2) Go see your doctor and look at treatment options. It sounds like an anxiety disorder. If you are losing sleep you need to seek help. Seek therapy and medication in combination ideally. Anxiety disorders can be treated with modern generation SSRIs like escitalopram that (generally) have mild side effects and ACTUALLY FUCKING HELP. 3) Listen to survival-biased startup founders who say you just gotta work harder to achieve your dreams. Hustle baby! Don't knock the hustle! You should worry about that shirt your wearing tomorrow it could cost you 100M in funding! --- OK, so point 2 is the only serious one I'm making, the other two are the facetious bullshit that people will recommend to you because they have never suffered mental illness and think they can talk you out of it. It's the most in-compassionate thing they could do. But hey, self righteousness feels great so you can't blame them more than you can blame a cocaine addict. The best part of this whole situation is you are self-aware of your anxiety. It took me nearly 10 years to notice how it affected me. At least in Australia we have state funded rebates on all this shit, and we can seek help and meds without it costing as much as a supercharged ford mustang would be on bad credit repayments, but the cost of not sorting it out can be significant, especially if you're working in tech. I'm not going in to details of what it cost me, but it's in the realm of millions if I had been in a right mind and had the right advice in my 20s. |
I'd be interested in reading more about how you managed the whole thing.