[bradleysmith]

writings that help me (to limited degrees):

Desiderata by Max Ehrmann http://mwkworks.com/desiderata.html Marcus Aurelius: Meditations http://classics.mit.edu/Antoninus/meditations.1.one.html

A couple of important thoughts:

-You're not the first to go through this feeling; great, successful people feel (or have felt) this way. Worrying is badly executed caring about yourself, and it's better that than to not care at all. Don't beat yourself up about it. You've already decided you want to change, don't beat yourself up about needing time to do that.

- Life will go on with or without you feeling okay about it. Every moment you spend thinking about some way you want the world to be different is a moment you didn't spend doing whatever it is you want to do with your life. Your life is your own, and whether it feels like it or not, you are choosing to worry, and you can choose not to. There are a great many things you cannot change in this world, and it's unfair to yourself to worry about them. You CAN change your thoughts and behaviors, so change them to however you think a great person would think and behave. There is nothing that is more worth doing with your time.

-be easy on yourself; laugh about it. it'll pass into "what the hell was my problem with that" much quicker.