[arvidj]

The other commentators haven't mentioned the fact that perhaps you could instead try to accept the fact that there is nothing wrong with being mediocre. By definition, most people are. Try to look into why you fear being mediocre? Also, perhaps you just happen to perceive yourself as mediocre? Sometime the want for change is the ill that needs to be addressed, and not the perceived faults in yourself. Good luck however you proceed!