[girvo]

I personally cannot get out of bed and face the world, I am suicidal at nearly all points of the day (but in a curious way; it's more I picture myself killing myself, but not in a "MUST DO THIS NOW" way. Its very odd and disconcerting). I can still experience emotions (all of them), but they are heavily skewed to the negative. I ignore the future, and focus on the past and present.

It's a shit disease.

[salemh]

I've found this comic very helpful to understand/identify with some of the emotions, swings and frustration with depression (and absolute stagnation).

http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2013/05/depression-par...

[mumbi]

I feel for you.