[orionblastar]

Never give up, don't end your life. Failure is a part of life, we humans learn from our mistakes. If you ever read "Dune" or watched the movie "Fear is the mind killer." and it makes a lot of sense that statement.

I am 45, and I am having a hard time. I am flat broke, disabled, and 100K in medical debt. No startups want to hire me, nobody wants to help me, and I did a great job when I was working and did two startups of my own.

http://www.greatdox.com/documentaries/ I want to do documentaries on various topics because I faced a lot of stuff in my life and I don't want to see others suffer as I have, as I have seen many others suffer. Know that you are not alone. I have software I want to develop as well. http://www.greatdox.com/software/

[surfmike]

"No startups want to hire me, nobody wants to help me" --> why does your profile then say "I am not looking for work, or joining a startup" ?

[orionblastar]

because I am going through a period of healing. Before I ended up on disability nobody wanted to hire me or let me join a startup. I had just been in a hospital recently and almost had a stroke and heart attack with high blood pressure, and found I have a defective heart valve. I had to take some time off to heal.

What I am trying to do is side-projects on my own. If you think I can better do that by joining a startup and getting work, I can change my status. But I had tried for over a decade and got nothing, before I put that status up.

[surfmike]

Ah ok. Best of luck. Side projects make great portfolios too, I hope they work out for you, or otherwise they can be a great thing to show future potential employers.

[orionblastar]

Well if I cannot find work, I'll keep working on side projects until I can find work.