[soneca]

Well, I am not like-minded and I will try to advise on solving your problems, if I may.

I would suggest you two things: embrace imperfection and try, if it is not possible to completely change what you do, at least change the rewards you get from what you are doing.

I have something in mind here, become a startup founder. You will not be connecting pieces that don't fit, but creating something from scratch, the way you want. You will decide where to focus on perfect solutions, but also deciding where you wouldn't bother to have a imperfect fit covered up. Having an interest in the final outcome, in terms of business, not code.

This is the other part that may help you. If you are developing for your business, your goal is about the consequences of the system you are building, not the system itself. I don't know how serious is your aversion to working with computers right now, but maybe just a change of approach to them help you.

And you would have a LOT of work that is not related to computers, you would have to do all those "things that don't scale" and this would provide a lot of different challenges for you.

Good luck!