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I am very worried about this actually... Today I was thinking about it, also about distractions, wasted time, and not enough time really idle. I noticed that recently I am always using my smartphone, to read news, HN, Facebook or exchange messages... Yet, my productivity is not good as I want, I manage to get bored on the internet, and the news don't really add anything useful on my life. And regarding social connections specifically, the only person I see is my SO, the last time I visited a friend is about 10 months. And the last time I spend more than one day with a friend, is about 10 years ago. Today, after thinking about all this, I tried to not read news... It was really, really, really hard, and only lasted well for about 4 hours. Then when I was going to drink some coffee, I forgot my cellphone, and as I sat on the table and tried to grab it, I felt VERY anxious and weird. And I don't remember this happening in 2011 (when I still owned a internet-less "dumbphone"). I am deeply worried, and I dunno what to do, I want to be able to "waste" time idle, to let my mind think about interesting things, I already have a very vast amount of knowledge (since I learned to read at age of 3 I became a avid reader, my hobby in childhood was read paperback encyclopedias and dictionaries, also I could read popular scientific magazines in one day or two), but I feel I cannot do anything about it, because I am 100% of the time busy, when I am not working I am on Facebook, or cellphone messages, or some news site, or a forum... I am thus with my brain busy so much that there is no time to come up with something new, even work-related ideas usually I have when walking home (I don't dare flashing a smartphone here in Brazil, that is a quick way to get killed) or when I am using the shower (for obvious reasons, I cannot use a smartphone while on the shower). |