[pfortuny]

I'm glad you have someone who loves you irl and you FEEL it. Very very important.

The 'one thing a day' is useful because able people (like you and I) tend to think 'what the heck, I can do this and that and those' and, when we are sick, we end up doing nothing at all, and despise ourselves because 'look, I should have done all those things I am capable of and ended up doing none'. Thus, the one-thing-a-day aim is very good to focus and lift up one's self-worthiness.

Try not to think of your duties & obligations, only of things that you can do and then celebrate. By the way: celebrate even if you feel crushed and worthless. One of the main steps is to notice that one is able to 'put aside' (wrong expression but) one's feelings and ACT according to one's will. (This takes time, effort and help and cannot be done at once, just keep on trying).

Being listened to, that is so so necessary. And then, at the same time, notice how she likes, enjoys and values you. You are worthy to her: this is very very important as an objective valuation of yours.

Good luck and keep the fight on. It is hard but worth the effort.