[rolledover]

I am ashamed to admit that the main reason I want this much money is because I have always been treated like I am not good enough by my parents. He is somewhat wealthy, and I feel very unaccomplished and useless compared to him. I guess I haven't given much thought to it, but the fantasy of having 100's of millions, having my own jet, and being able to prove to them and their friends that they were wrong about me, seems to be the central reason for wanting to have this amount of money. I hate it that I can't do anything for them that they can't already do for themselves. I hate it that they treat me like less of a person because I have not been successful. I get a poisonous taste in my mouth just thinking about it. It makes me really angry, but mostly at myself for not figuring something out by now.