[DanBC]

Be careful with financial decision. Do not give away all your money. Poor people can also feel worthless.

Consider volunteering. Many local organisations need people. You could do something that uses all your tech skills, but you may find it useful to do something that is just work; shifting boxes or somesuch.

Moving abroad would be a brilliant experience, but please do so carefully. Please do not "burn your bridges". It's good that you can see that there are ways out of the situation that you are in, but it's gently concerning that the methods you're using are destructive.

As others have said, consider Cognitive Behaviour Therapy. (Or other good quality therapies.) These can be self applied from books ("Mind Over Mood") or Websites (MoodGym (https://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome) ) or via therapists.

And if you really want to give some cash away I have an Amazon wishlist ;-)

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This community truly has amazing people in it. Thank you for the recommendations, I will be using those sources asap.