[cdvonstinkpot]

You sound like someone who needs to count your blessings. Ever heard of a gratitude list? Put things on there like that you've still got your sight & all your fingers. Imagine how difficult things would be if you didn't.

I know it sounds corny, but actually seeing on paper all the things you've got going for you can help when things are out of perspective, because that's all it is your problem is is perspective.

What's so bad about being the lower class all your life? In America we've got it made! I'm assuming you're in the US, maybe you're not, but even if you're not I'm assuming you're in a developed nation if you're able to save $1M+ somehow.

I lost my whole retirement ($160k) on a failed startup, and I've got nothing to show for it but a lesson learned, now I'm on the task of regaining my retirement & seeing to it that I can retire properly on time. Be glad you've got that task checked off. Your retirement won't be in poverty. There's one thing for your gratitude list. A big thing. To me at least.

Perspective is your only problem. Volunteer at a homeless shelter or a soup kitchen for a month maybe, see what some people are living like. When I was homeless it sucked, now when I get out of perspective I can remember it & just be glad to have my apartment- then I feel better.

[rolledover]

Yes, it's definitely a case of Maslow's hierarchy. I am thankful and grateful, and actually think of it every day, and let other people know that I love them and are grateful for them. But I have this great fear that I will never be successful. I will never figure it out. I will never make it happen. And that's really all I want right now. I just want to make something happen. It would be great to have 100's of millions, but honestly, if I could just support myself by something I created myself (not some job), I think I would cry tears of joy. I just feel like it's impossible right now. I guess I should go try to do the impossible so if I fail, at least it was something really hard. That will take some of the pressure off.

[cdvonstinkpot]

Don't react out of emotion & set yourself up for failure now though.