[jongraehl]

If it matters to you (of course it's tangential to the article), I sympathize more with those who face death before 50 due to random events, than those who suffer depression (though it's often equally morally blameless - essentially random accidents of brain chemistry). Depressed folk at least have a realistic hope of treatments that will give them some remaining years in life that they would choose over death.

Good luck w/ your life, and it sounds like you really care about her. Hope you can tell her you love her or whatever at some point without feeling guilty about it harming her (then again, I'm sure she knows).