[gesman]

You're trying to control forces outside of your control. The result of this are your emotions that are destructive to your health. From your post, in order listed:

furious, disappointed, outraged, unfortunately, died, disagreed, forgotten, drop in passion.

You keep feeling this way - you're going to kill your health.

[LoganCale]

So we should just be happy and accept it, in other words?

[e3pi]

That steak eating guy in the Matrix, right?