[huherto]

Consider yourself lucky. There are plenty of paths open for you. (And that is why is difficult)

If I went back to high school? I would really focus in sports. It would teach me discipline, team work, and a lot of social skills.

After that, Try to get in a good college so you meet a lot interesting people. Follow your curiosity.

...keep hanging out in HN. Lot's of talent here.