[scottporad]

Wow!

1. No, you should not give up.

2. You need to find a "coach". This could come in the form of a mentor, a life coach, a therapist. A third-party who can help you refine your goals and work out a plan of milestones to get from here to there. (Refining goals is important...you have a lot of big goals.)

3. I feel trapped a lot too...and agree that everything seems like a long haul or impossibility. What I've learned about myself is that I learn by doing, and that the key is just doing things. What I mean by that is that I just try stuff and as I'm doing it I figure out if it's what I want to be doing. That's earned me a little bit of a bad rap as a person who starts things and doesn't finish them. But, the alternative is worse: a person who sits thinking about how things are too impossible and never does anything.

4. I don't mean to dampen your ambition, but part of the problem is that you're too damn ambitious. I have a little saying: to build a big business, you have to build a small business first. In other words, if you have big dreams...and you do...you're not gonna go from 0 to 60 overnight. Rome wasn't built in a day. Start with a small ambition, achieve it, then build on that success and make it bigger.

5. And, don't give up...you're only 31 and you're already on third base.

[rolledover]

Thank you. I really do need a coach, and definitely also a therapist. I wish I could find both, even if (or probably better if) separate people.

I would do anything at this point, even if to just intern, work with a coach, or be around the environment that I want to be in, I would leave this place with 6 months rent left on it and move anywhere within the week.

[abestic9]

Alright, here's a an idea if you feel like putting your money where your mouth is. New Zealand is a good place to start. I'm not sure which country you're in right now but I notice far too often that people aren't willing to move to another country even if it may be the best thing for them. I'm working on projects that affect a good percentage of this country, mostly because of its short reach.

Just don't live in Auckland.

[JacobAldridge]

Just visited New Zealand (South Island only) for the first time, and can confirm it's an amazingly beautiful country and one where I can imagine energised new beginnings. Iceland felt very similar - smaller, of course, and officially not english speaking, but closer to Europe amd North America.

And for the OP rolledover - I'm a (business) coach, email in my profile, if you want to know more about what to look for in a good coach / mentor.

[Cardeck1]

IF you are willing to learn, I might know someone that can help you.But he doesn't work with everyone.He is definitely one of the best there is.Email me and I'll see what I can do.No promises.Thanks.