[joelmaat]

Proficient vs. perfect? One summer. Then another one to round it all out. Which sucked, because I spent the next few years having the life beaten out of me by others that were jealous or thought what I did was impossible. The backward point of view of most people and their attitude of negativity and jealousy toward anyone that's good at what they do is maddening. I'm sick of being around idiots.

Now, it's likely I'm behind and forgetting. Any potential, or world-changing talent is now wasted away and I'm closer to being decidedly average. I can't believe it.

Whatever.

[soneca]

Are you saying that the people around you made being smart a bad thing and also are responsible for you to regress from a genius developer to an average one?

[joelmaat]

My regress to an average (or worse) developer did happen all at once, but I guess I'd say yes, because it was due to this same reason (jealousy/BS). Before "the event," many constantly did everything to get in my way and this slowed my progress down considerably. Years ago, I was on the cutting edge nearing greatness, but this BS eliminated any chance of me actually achieving that.

Also in there is my tendency to procrastinate, which also slowed me down, but I don't procrastinate much when it comes to writing code and working.