[gehar]

I'm sorry for your loss.

Medical technology is not yet at a state (and probably never will be) where we have foresight and skill to balance pain relief and life protection in the face of all the ways a body can succumb. Every choice is a gamble. There is still much to improve.

At the end of life, a body is wastage, and gives no one pleasure or comfort. Don't let that overshadow everything before.

May the memory of your mother's many years be a blessing for always, as your love for her comforted her for as long as she was conscious.

[Udo]

Thanks, I appreciate the sentiment.

However, as someone with medical training, this experience prompted me to introspect more than anything I ever saw before. This is not just about my own private failures in the face of disaster, it has also re-kindled my conviction that a lot of things are deeply wrong with medicine as it is practiced today. Many of these things are fixable in the short term, but won't be because of clinical culture. What's worse, many other things are only fixable long-term if we as a civilization can manage commit to a certain kind of research even if it's not justifiable by (short term) profits. I've become very pessimistic about this.