[_chrismccreadie]

The thing that stuck out the most for me was your state of mind. You mentioned how you have struggled emotionally and felt the hit of three rejections. You then go on to say you like being emotionally attached to things that you do.

It seems to me you are an emotional person. I consider myself the same, when my state of mind is gone, I'm worse than useless.

My advice: Get to the core of what is making you unhappy and fix it.

Please don't think that I am passing you're struggles off as a "shit happens, get on with it", quite the opposite in fact. A healthy body and a healthy mind. Well, I find that I can deal with parts of my body failing (I am getting older after all) but please don't underestimate the power of your mind. If you are unhappy with aspects of your life no "dream job" will fix it. Sure, people do get down when they are looking for work, it's a stress and a hassle but I suspect most people's unhappiness runs deeper than that.

Good luck with the job hunting. It would have been nice to see which GitHub projects you are working on (the feedback from the HN community alone would have been valuable).