[shadowrunner]

It sounds like you're running from -10 to 0 (-10 being despair and 0 being adequately motivated) instead of starting and 0 and ramping up to +10 (10 being a full blown obsession).

If you are just treading water, look for a way to get out or modify your work so you enjoy it more. To get to a +10, I think you need to dream big and set goals to achieve those dreams.

I also suggest you do whatever it takes to enjoy your work process. What helps for me is buying great software that removes points of friction from my workflow.

For instance, instead of getting annoyed at crappy, slow PDF reader software, I splurged and bought Nitro PDF which is like a Ginsu knife. Now, using and editing PDFs is sheer elation.

I'm actually launching a program that reveals how to become obsessed over anything - even stuff you used to hate doing. If you're interested you can sign up here: http://indoctrinator.com