[CyberFonic]

1. Get professional help ASAP

2. I was in a similar position to you and survived, only just. The key is that if one therapist doesn't help - find another and another until you find one with whom you "click".

3. Medications can work, the tricky part is to find the combination that works for you. And then to ease off the cocktail once the positive effects of therapy kick in.

4. The thought process that saved me was rather simple: If I go ahead with this self-harm idea it is final. Since I'm willing to chuck it all in, then why not try ____ and see if it lets me start again from a better base. If not I can try something else. There's always another day for that.

Anyway, that's what worked for me. But the first step is to keep the dialogue going and go to step 1 ASAP --- please

[rauar]

good advice

[turnwhere]

I know that this is good advice, but it's very hard not to find the final part of suicide the most attractive. When you feel so bad each day, a permanent solution is what you look for I guess.