[nraynaud]

I find this crazy. You don't start something because you want to. You start because you feel you have to.

I don't feel like I could last more than 3 months at bigco, that is if my lack of degree, and my full startup career, and "no-nonsense" attitude woud not block me at the recruitment process.

When you need control of your office life, when you have to be able to make a better expense report system if you see a problem, when you want to impact the end product in a major way, when you want to select the people you will work with, then you have to go for small and young companies.

[aangjie]

> You don't start something because you want to. You start because you feel you have to.

Seconded. Though i haven't done any new startups, except work at a small one.

OTOH, as someone known to have been depressed, i would say he makes a good point. i could identify with that eiffel tower climbing as an attempt to cure the fear of failure analogy very well.

[nraynaud]

I'm extremely worried, I'm locked out of bigco (for the best), I don't want to be locked ou of startup land.

The herd mentality is so strong in this part of work world that it might really be quick.

[jacquesm]

It's not 'either do bigco or do a start-up'. You could probably do great as a consultant or a contractor. That way you still get to write your own ticket and you avoid the (majority of) the stress.

[nraynaud]

I'm just bad at service, I tried being a contractor and then an independent consultant and it was a disaster.

I work for products, I need a team with the skills I don't have, I need to make mistakes and correct them on the way to a product that sells. I need smart people doing stuff I didn't know where possible that quick, I like to cut the red-tape and corp. foolishness for them, I like to bring candidates in the middle of the team and check if they fit or not, I like to say "sorry" to a customer after someone makes a mistake that wrongs them. I like going on skype a 3AM after a pagerduty alert and seeing we're 2 or 3 on the incident. And I like the fight against clutter and complexity inside growing companies.