[chamboo]

"For example, if you believe that smart people are smart because they do clever things easily -- then your brain can start to believe that if you find something hard to do, it is proof of your stupidity. The brain then finds ways to avoid this painful conflict between ego-image and reality -- by dreaming up great ambitions and projects, but then shying away from realising them. Or, you can develop an aversion to "lesser work" -- which reinforces a belief that you are innately special and "above that"

This is me. It seems very complicated to overcome such a thing, as some of the assumptions seem rational. What do you deem as 'practical things to do'? (Or do you have any examples of this?)

Also thanks for this. I don't know what to say, but this hits home rather hard.

[bones6]

My advice would be do something seriously FUN as a first project. Do you have a hobby that could be a springboard? For example, I love Radio-Controlled stuff. So a project could be arduino controlled R/C car/drone. A little coding and a little wiring with real results. It's not trivial, but it's not over the top difficult either. That's my example, but try to get a concrete project to tackle. You will learn what you need to learn in the journey to finish it.

[chamboo]

Well I did build a custom, fully watercooled computer with flow/temperature monitoring and custom fan control from scratch. Custom wired and designed and overclocked to 5GHZ. Although it's just a computer, it actually took quite a bit of extensive planning and research. Not sure that it really did anything for me, I don't tend to give myself credit for anything for some reason. I figure if I can do it, it must not be too hard.

But yea, maybe that is a good start. I need to shrug this feeling of worthlessness that I carry so heavily. Maybe these are the baby steps needed.