[theevocater]

Just because he said what you were thinking doesn't make him right or the argument right. These feelings of frustration and anger are pretty normal with depression and its ugly cousin suicide.

Depression and suicide aren't feelings that you can reason away with friends or cheer in the best of times. To say that he killed himself because of the court case is speculation at best and likely wrong. Aaron wrote candidly about his struggles with depression and thoughts of suicide. I'm sure the court case didn't help with his feelings of unhappiness, loneliness, guilt and crushing anxiety but to say that he killed him self as the easy way out is... ignorant. Depression isn't rational; it is a terrible disease. It whispers in your ear and tells you that compliments are mere mockery. It tells you that your accomplishments are hollow. It poisons relationships with mistrust and isolation.

I understand that it makes one feel frustrated! Why didn't he just hold out a bit longer or realize that he had so many friends and supporters or realize that even if he lost it wasn't the end of the world or ... He probably did but was poisoned by a disease that affected the very essence of his thinking. Even if he rationally knew that he had lots of supporters, he would be clouded with self-doubt about their motivation or what not. Depression can be painfully frustrating because you just want to shake the person and shout and tell them that people are here for them and that they are smart and passionate and accomplished and somehow make them realize that they have it all wrong if they would just listen.