| Yes. I've been suicidally depressed. I'm one of the fortunate people for whom first-line SSRIs (in my case, sertraline) are very effective. I no longer rely on the meds, but I have additional comfort knowing that they're there if I need them. I still have bad patches. And it's weird, being inside yourself, intellectually cognisant that this emotion of pointlessness and worthlessness is an illusion, that it doesn't exist -- yet being, sometimes, unable to beat it. I know that, left to build gravity, the black spiral is stronger than me because it is me. But I also know that the treatment is stronger. And that is there, if I ever need it again. If I ever get too many of those days in a row, I won't hesitate to seek help. And neither should anybody else. The suffering is entirely unnecessary. Get help. You are not alone. It gets better. |