[notactuallyme]

Never really been a fan of new year resolutions, but a few that really are down to accidental timing...

- Stay off cigarettes (quit a month ago and going fine)

- Stop using cocaine (this happens to be the week I've realised that I'm close to being addicted - hell, I'm high right now)

- Start writing some sort of novel, something I've wanted to do for a few years

(edit: Sorry for the throwaway account, don't really want my name showing up in Google talking about a coke habit..)

[ddorian43]

any longterm effects that you see?

[notactuallyme]

Sorry can you elaborate on what you're asking?

[ddorian43]

on your cocaine addiction, if you have used it for a long time(i don't know how much is long), do you see any longterm effects? (example: some people who smoke weed say they are more chill(when not high) then before they used to smoke)

[notactuallyme]

Until fairly recently I didn't use it often, and no, I haven't noticed any real changes in myself (other than when on it).

I've smoked weed for a much longer time - though not much lately, and never a full-time stoner, just relaxing with friends now and then - and while I don't think that's really changed me either, it does feel like it has a greater ability to, because getting stoned is about relaxing and thinking, it's a state of mind you can go to when sober, and certainly I know a couple of people who are always smoking it and their normal personality certainly seems to have merged with their stoned personality.

Long-term changes aren't what's making me stop, it's the worry that if I keep going much longer I'll spiral out of control, which definitely isn't good for my bank balance and has a decent chance of not being good from a safety point of view, either.

[ddorian43]

safety as in health safety ,law safety or both?

[notactuallyme]

Health - I've never been particularly careful in terms of looking after my body (smoking, eating, etc. etc.) but don't want to do anything that could have a shorter term risk, which is why I've never, and will never, touch anything stronger than coke.

To be honest I've never really thought about legal issues. Had a couple of occasions where I had weed in my pocket and was a little scared by proximity of cops, but never enough that they would have really cared had they noticed. And never been close to any issues with police and cocaine, so never stopped to worry about it.