| Every sector will have its advantages and disadvantages. You must find the one that is right for you. You will not overcome this with everything buzzing in your mind. Take every opportunity to unplug, self isolate, and ground yourself in silence. Breath. Let the anxiety evaporate from you, at least for those moments. Nothingness is your friend, your closest intimate companion. It is a challenging skill which must be practiced. I don’t know your environment, I like to take long walks. Sometimes loosing myself in exercise. Sure I sometimes “meditate” only that is the opposite of how it sounds. Competence and capability are like good hygiene. You have a little nagging voice inside you that says keep the lines neat, tie up the ends, clean up afterwards, and then the loud pressing urge to just get the job done, do only what is required, and react to a million things confronting you. In every situation endure without complaint, giving more than was asked, seeing through the finer details even when not explicitly demanded of you will transform you into a respected person of capacity. It is always harder in the beginning, your investments will pay off. When I was just getting started I used to say motivational things to myself like “form, focus, patience” or “integrity, principle, devotion”. Some mantra that suits you may drown out the self doubt and leave your attention for your personal growth! |