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Yeah it makes me sad too. It's a one-way veil, no going back once I experienced the new magic. Sometimes I pop back into a terminal, mkdir, git init, crack my knuckles to do some all-natural hacking and the sadness sets in before the hour is up... "why am I insisting on doing this the long way? I know this project would be better with me in a different role now." Coding for me has always been a balance of process and ends. Getting done what I wanted done mattered most, but I can't pretend that I didn't also enjoy being the moving parts of that process. And I am most grateful for what I learned by throwing myself over and over against problems I didn't quite know how to solve. There's a satisfaction to doing a thing well that I always love being a part of, still do, anything, even doing the dishes or laundry. And just recently with Opus I found myself having some really joyously manic days and weeks, making calls, picking tech, designing APIs, insisting on quality, keeping agents spinning. But Fable just kind of came in with "oh, I can do that all for you too. You can relax," and that was both exactly what I wanted and what started making me realize this had all finally caught up to me. I never wanted to be management, but I can't unsee that I am more effective now playing Fable's boss than I was the last few months as TLM of a squad of Opuses, and that was more effective than just coding myself the way I love. |