[RealityVoid]

I'm not so sure. I think you can, you just need to intentionally drill into what you don't understand and it's exhausting. What I do agree with though is that I can't seem to build the ability to build it myself the same way as I would if I wrote it.

For example, I know my mental model works because I know what change I should do in order to get an effect and when I do the change, I get what I expect. But if I were to build myself something similar, I could not build it because the approach is somewhat out of my reach, I know it sounds weird, but it's hard to explain.