[inigyou]

That feels very defeatist, if life only gets worse then I might as well just end it. I prefer to think it's something unexplained and it just shows up more in older people because more things have happened to them so they're more likely to have encountered whatever the cause is.

[iwontberude]

The whole trick to life is that none of this matters and if you can hold it together long enough it’s still enjoyable to be alive and to die.

[inigyou]

Emotionally integrating that outlook is easier said than done. It's also just one of many healthy outcomes of an existential crisis.