Unfortunately you will never realize how this ideology is fucking up every facet of society and which interests that are never your own put a momentous effort into drilling that propaganda into your head.
It's strongly ideological-based thinking to believe your government need to pay for the profit of some investor in another country in order to do anything, because if they did it themselves they just "fuck it up". It's your taxes being redistributed to people that tell you this is just evidence-based, technocratic thinking and without alternative. Then you see the infrastructure around you falling apart and get angry when you hit a pothole - why are you paying so much taxes for nothing, let's cut them we start at those corporations are paying...
Not big on evidence-based thinking, are you?