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by annnoo 18 days ago
I had this moment when we designed shirts for the marathon we ran as a group. Instead of Brainstorming something funny, we just prompted ChatGPT and chose one of the results.

I felt lost immediately. All the creativity, the humanity, the endless hours of putting soul into something. Gone

For one hour or so I had some kind of existential crisis. Just because of a funny slogan on a shirt. And sometimes I still feel empty on new projects. You can produce so much things so fast, but if it should be something original - it is hard to get it generated by AI while still feeling that it is something that you came up with

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Ever since I started experimenting with AI coding, I've totally lost that feeling of accomplishment. For projects I actually developed by typing in the code, it feels like I actually did something--like here's something I built and am responsible for bringing into the world. When I finish an AI-built project, I feel...nothing. Just that empty: "Code now exists where it didn't exist before, but I didn't really do anything." Without any sense of ownership or attachment whatsoever. If someone DMCA'ed one of my GitHub projects and made me take it down, I'd be pissed. But if someone DMCA'ed an AI-coded thinggy, I'd probably delete the repo and never think about it again in my life.
If your project contained original thought does it matter if the IFs and the ELSEs were generated?

I sometimes wonder if people get into this to create an actual working something or they just enjoy sorting colored blocks for the heck of it.

I am on the other extreme end: I don’t give a rat’s ass about the code itself. The spec, the intent, the architecture, the contracts are what I find interesting. All the “file handling” and “logging” and syntax wrangling and caring if some “variable” is on the “stack” or the “heap” I can live without very happily. It’s not that they are uninteresting in and of themselves but I find it hard to justify keeping my focus on these microscopic issues again and again and again and again.

I have landed here myself. I have always enjoyed writing code, but I find lately that I am getting so much more satisfaction from the process of exploring and designing systems more, and code is simply the substrate.

I am becoming a better architect with AI, because I am spending more mental energy in that lane, getting less embroiled in the nitty-gritty of the code.

I had that the first few months, but that feeling doesnt stay forever. I think a difficulty with that discussion is that some are still in the honeymoon stage, while others are at the “wtf is the point” stage of the relationship with coding harnesses. In my case that took ~1y from using tools like Claude code daily to the point where I lost interest and motivation once I understood the technology contributed negatively to my personal growth.
> I understood the technology contributed negatively to my personal growth.

If your goal is to become better at writing code, it almost certainly is a net negative.

If you define growth as shipping stuff and getting things done that you previously wouldn’t have had the time for, then it might be a positive.

Hell, it’s probably both at the same time and what each person cares more about is the deciding factor.

Programming/software engineering isn't writing code. It's understanding and designing systems. The code is the way we encode the logic. The runtime/compiler of your language is one system among many engineers have to understand and develop expertise in. When working yourself on problems you learn about the various protocols, interfaces, past design decisions and their trade offs, tooling, and develop your general system thinking. When you delegate to AI you get the resulting artifact but none of the personal growth that comes with developing it.

Think of the recent bun rewrite from zig to rust, around 1M lines of code. If you would have a team do that migration they would very likely have to become close to Rust expert, and develop an intimate knowledge of the codebase, its tradeoffs, have ideas for future improvements, good understanding of the technical debt they accepted, reliability of tests, etc. That's A LOT of expertise you can then apply to other things in your professional life.

Instead they went the AI way. The got the artifact (the migration) in ~1 week. But that's pretty much it? What did they learn from that project, other than the fact the AI can do that work? My guess would be pretty much nothing. And pretty much any other software engineer could have done the same migration. There is zero personal growth here.

There was a thread[1] about this the other day! People have different goals, motivations, and reasons for developing. I guess I just like sorting colored blocks. I'll agonize over the code... I really will go back to a class I wrote months ago and ask "Do I really need this member variable?" and "Does this really need to go on the heap or can it live on the stack and be automatically cleaned up?" "Can I use a pImpl C++ pattern here and reduce the number of headers that this header file includes?"

1: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=48316056

> I am becoming a better architect with AI, because I am spending more mental energy in that lane, getting less embroiled in the nitty-gritty of the code.

I don't believe this, every architect ive ever worked with that was not regularly in the weeds on various things in the codebase were universally terrible and out of touch.

That's probably all true. But I wonder if brains are just wired differently. I was never the developer that cared much about the particular shapes of any concrete IF/ELSE blocks in the code, so initially I was very bullish on using Claude Code a year ago. I realized that I'm the kind of guy who discovers the high-level architecture by writing the low-level code though. I'm not always sure what that architecture is up front, but the sheer act of writing code into a specific module sets off an internal background task probing the specific invariants of the module with respect to the architecture I have in mind, allowing me to revise and improve the design. That is all lost. All my agentically engineered projects look crude from an architectural perspective.
> I am becoming a better architect with AI

Be careful with that claim. Abstractions more or less leak especially in CE where the OS and hardware you built on are already full of leaky abstractions, e.g. performance traits. It is still important to look through and comprehend code.

I agree. I use the grill me skill and superpowers brainstorming to learn different methods of building stuff as far as architecture goes. Stuff I wouldn't normally think of if I just continued being "just a FE engineer"
ai can do architecture too.
On the one hand, this feels very pragmatic.

On the other hand, it feels like what people who weren't great software engineers say.

It's kind of a craft. I can't imagine an exceptional artist saying "screw the craft, I just want the painting that vaguely resembles what I requested".

I _can_ imagine artists that were not exceptional saying "it's so great that I can just prompt and get the damn painting, who care about how it's put together".

Up next, an architect who doesn't understand how concrete pours or how steel bends under stress? Hope the AI gets it perfect?

Interesting times we live in - and I realize this is an elitist take.

I think you are right, but I still care. I want to write software that is immortal. My dream is to write code that people would be happy to read and easy to understand. It is also some kind of meditation. I can zone into something and "get my hand dirty".

> I sometimes wonder if people get into this to create an actual working something or they just enjoy sorting colored blocks for the heck of it.

So yes, to be honest, some people write software for the "heck of it". Will my implementation of Lisp interpreter matter at all in the grand scheme of things? No. It is in fact a waste of time, because you _could_ have learnt how it works and implement it in less than an hour with LLM.

> The spec, the intent, the architecture, the contracts are what I find interesting.

To me, this is like saying the financial of the company is what determines the company's success, not whatever the engineering team is doing. So instead of thinking about the "The spec, the intent, the architecture, the contracts", just give the right monetary incentives and you will come up with a successful project.

From this perspective, can you empathize with the "low level" developers?

If a photo has strong composition and symbolism, does it matter if the photographer took the photo as opposed to prompting it into existence?
The entire purpose of a photo is to capture a moment. What 'moment' is AI capturing? Do the books in the background represent the 'moment'? The adverts? The furniture? The clothing? The hairstyle? These are all 'parts of the moment'. When we look at old pictures, these details are the parts people LOVE going over. None of that is there in AI, and in 20 years, no one will care go look it over, because it's meaningless, unintentional slop. Not a haircut someone picked out. Funny hiphugger/mom waist/tight/loose/bellbottoms. Not currated books in the background that represent thought of the time in which the picture was taken.

There is nothing in the AI photo worth re-looking at later, because there is nothing there. There is nothing to take from any of the 'details' in the image.

Does it matter if the moment is real? What makes you think that all of the photos that have been taken thus far are real? What makes you think that the photographer chose a certain angle to craft a story? Is that moment real? When people say "cheese" in photos to make them smile, are those real?

I am not a proponent of AI images, believe me, but I find it interesting to think that people would not like AI images. People don't really care if something is real or not. They just want to be told a good story.

i.e. we are fucked, but we have already been fucked for years without knowing. Call me a luddite but selfies is the fakest shit ever. I would rather take pictures of plants, rocks and animals than people.

That's a purpose of a photo, not the purpose. As an art form, there's a lot more to it, and much of it happens after the shutter closes.
If the realism is important, it does matter. If realism is not important("strong symbolism"), then it is not important.
An interesting question because photos are mostly machine-generated to begin with. The photographer just hits a button.
"Just hits a button" is an incredibly reductive way to look at photography
The work of a photographer is to put something interesting in front of the lens before pressing the button.
Your comment captures the most objectionable mentality behind AI zealotry so well. So much display of hubris, no appreciation of science, engineering, art, or anything at all.
to many, it does not.
"original thoughts" are not accessible to 99 percent of ppl. doenst mean they have to live a life of zero fulfillment.
I enjoyed writing code because it felt like playing Lego. Just putting stuff together. Now I do let AI code, and it's like putting together different Lego.

That said, I wouldn't let AI build my Lego sets for me because the point of that is the building. But for work? As long as my boss is happy enough to keep funding my Lego hobby, I'm happy.

You should try a higher level language. Go has no concept of stack or heap neither does Java.
To me, English is just another programming language. Some of us will always be better at it than others, and the ones that know other programming languages well will always have an advantage over those who do not.

When you are good at it there can be craft in it still.

English is not a programming language though. I don’t understand how such an obviously false sentence can be so persistent.
I'm not even sure what you mean. Of course it is.

A programming language is a formal intermediate language for turning human comprehensible instructions into machine instructions by means of an interpreter or compiler. We've now allowed that intermediate language to be English, because that's preferable to most people, and the "compiler" has become very complicated indeed as a result of that.

You still have to be able to express what it is you want in a way the machine can understand, it's just both simpler and less deterministic now.

This. Just because an llm can translate any language into a programming language doesn’t suddenly make all languages programming languages. Until I can ‘brew install englishc’ and so on, it’s not a f**ing programming language.
Can you define programing language in a way that includes all the current programming languages and excludes English? I kind of doubt it unless you just define it as "anything that isn't a human language", which would be silly.
That’s why fully AI written projects are only interesting to those who care only about productivity (i.e. business use cases) rather than the developer’s enjoyment and satisfaction.

For my own sanity, I never allow AI to do everything. Either I write some code and turn to AI for debugging help and code review, or I let AI write the initial draft and I debug the AI-written code.

I think this is completely dependent on the person building it and why they love building software.

Some people got into software development because they love to code. Others got into it because they love bringing ideas to life and coding was the only means to do so.

I am of the latter. I love software development because it allows me to bring my idea to life. Yes, I love to code but it's a means to get to my ultimate goal. I don't have a lot of time outside of work and family to work on my ideas. They usually just sit in my head until I forget about them.

Being able to use AI to assist in feature planning while I'm on the go, break everything down into organize phases, put those phases into the structured tickets, work on architecture design, and have things come to life around my requirements and within my constraints has been a complete game changer.

It's also not an either/or, You can love both. I still love coding for the challenge, but I also love the productivity benefits AI brings me when producing things that benefit people.

At the end of the day I do not put my skills on a pedestal either, I can learn from AI the same way I learn from reading open source code.

You are absolutely right! Sorry, I couldn't resist that one (thanks Claude).

I agree with you completely.

I started at a new company in February and was able to use AI to get fully on boarded 3 months faster than their typical onboarding cycle.

I use it to learn new things all the time and to enhance my existing decades of experience. Very humbling when it shows you how much you don't know.

I feel AI is interesting if the purpose is utilitarian, but not if the purpose is artistic or expressive. I've thought to myself: If AI could create a bicycle, would I ride it? Probably, yes. If AI could create a bed frame and matching bedside cabinets, would I outfit my bedroom with them? Maybe, maybe not. If AI could paint a picture on canvas (it probably can), would I hang the output in my house? Hell no!
Welcone to Management - AI Edition: everything bad about technical management except for the people problems.
The current state of humanity, not only AI.
Meaning, purpose, essence.

Instead of void shit, empty pleasure.

AI is like cheap void calories. Writing by hand is calories from a good home cooked meal with all the nutrients and love, AI code (unless maybe you worked on putting together an AI system and the harness is your build), feels like calories from a Sprite.

Also I’ve been thinking that ai code is like cheap amazon furniture and hand crafted is well… hand crafted.

Your analogy is apt. The challenge is that most of the world runs on cheap calories and cheap furniture and that seems to be growing more and more.
Will there be a point where hand crafted does end you somewhere like the Toaster Project [1]

[1]https://www.thomasthwaites.com/the-toaster-project/

Wr are already there, in a sense: the amount of basic software in a box that is required to produce more software is already huge. And so is the supply chains behind it.
The idea of having all of those steps generated so unreliably is haunting.
Learning some schmuck's framework, IDE, language or OS never felt rewarding to me. It was always like playing with broken toys. Hear me out.

There was always some subtle quirk, a bug that irks me once every so often, something I'd never want to unleash upon masses and although these people made their work available through various channels, paid or unpaid, for some reason I felt more of a grudge than gratitude.

And I tried to fix things I did. It was a breathless, thankless exercise of working through someone else's code line by line for decades while hardly being able to lift my head because of actual work I had to do to support my life. And thus a villain was born.

I am so glad it is over. It is all ingested into neural network weights and high-pressure sprayed to the masses through RNG. I am finally free. I don't have to learn your stupid aws commands, your helm configs, your systemd antics, your http api. I don't have to care about your life times, your gc params. I tell the computer and it clinks and clanks and eventually gets the job done like gene rodenberry intended.

Endless hours of putting soul into your shirt? I mean, good for you, but it sounds like your team wasn’t so stoked about that as you are. So I’m not sure you can blame AI for that one.

Give it time. This is a skill (and tooling) issue.

AI enables so goddamn much creativity. You literally don’t know what to do with it, but once society adapts and we all calm TF down we are free to create in whatever capacity we like.

Your shirt? Go to town! Draw something yourself and let AI patch up some rough edges. Do some style transfer. Or don’t use it. That’s still an option. As you said it is hard to create with AI without losing your soul but that’s not inherent to the tech. It’s a massive skill and tooling issue.

Instead of choosing between “do it fully myself” and “let someone else do it” you get a slider now. You get to pick! How awesome is that?

> Endless hours of putting soul into your shirt? I mean, good for you, but it sounds like your team wasn’t so stoked about that as you are. So I’m not sure you can blame AI for that one.

I think you may have misread the parent comment.

And currently AI has no creativity nor does it enhance a human's creativity. It simply regurgitates and at best the human user can lie to themselves that they did it. Look at the "rinse and repeat" of animated movies. Humanity has been in a cycle of regurgitation for quite some time and AI is only going to make it worse.

How did I misread? They chose to use GPT? There is a multitude of options that range from an empty piece of paper to choosing ChatGPT outputs.

That is a very black and white view you got there mate. I’m not sure I agree. Creativity does not need to be in the AI nor does the human need “enhancing”. We can just be creative in new and to me interesting ways. Just like how synthesizers enabled new sounds but you still need to be a musician to get anything good.

Society is still adapting. I say give it time.

disagree. i designed a new shirt design for our small startup every year for the last 5 years. This year i was able to have significantly better designs (even two) in shorter times and much happier team mates. Still my creativity, still a good amount of work in Affinity Designer, but a significant quality and speed boost. its just a tool, but a good enough one in that muggles suddenly think they are 10x'ers because they produce more output which floods the system with "slop".
> As you said it is hard to create with AI without losing your soul but that’s not inherent to the tech.

It definitely appears inherent so far. You could say infinite feeds optimized for engagement is just neutral tech too. The biggest mistake we made in the last tech revolution of ”social” media was to judge tech by its potential rather than the business model.

> You get to pick! How awesome is that?

It's awesome if you don’t derive meaning from the process. Like cheating in a single player game, you can just skip and watch the credits.

Ironically one of my most memorable game experiences ever is just walking and climbing for ages in Death Stranding, in poor weather, slipping, picking up baggage. It was miserable. But effort seems to create meaning.

There is zero utilitarian value of arbitrary words on a shirt. The shirt will keep sun off your back and absorb your sweat just as well or as poorly with or without the words.

The ONLY point of the words is to express a sentiment shared by the group, creating a bond and solidarity.

But if the sentiment did not come from anyone in the group or from the group as a collective, why put words on the shirt at all?

It's the lie of a shared connection without the reality. Just like social media "friends" or the "intimacy" of porn. Just another way to destroy a little more of our souls.

I kind of have a process with Suno, where I have Claude or a different model generate lyrics for me, then I generate a song, and tweak the lyrics when they sound off, eventually I have a song that's more "me" than "Claude" with lyrics that make sense, but sometimes Claude has some petty sleek lyrics. I mostly do this for fun, but I enjoy doing it a lot.

On that same spirit, Suno is why I bought a midi keyboard last December, and I'm experimenting with actual DAWs as well. I always loved music, and used to make beats with FL Studio (which was shunned by people much like AI for ages) and even within the Suno community I see people shunning others if they have AI writing lyrics for them, its really weird to me. I do feel weird if I try to make Suno make songs I personally cannot 100% relate to, or experiences I've never been close to living through, like I love gangsta rap, I would never feel comfortable making and releasing gangsta rap since it doesn't define who I was.

I think you're hinting at an interesting distinction in how AI interaction can play out. Sometimes it makes you feel like you have been cut out and are now an outsider on your own project, other times it introduces you to something and helps you get started in a world you could not access on your own.
AI makes the good students better and the bad students worse.
This is really the best way to put it.

On the other hand: In terms of building software using agents I wouldn't call developers students, specifically when it comes to letting AI write the code, but its a similar concept: Good developers know how to architect and guide the coding agent, bad ones keep asking it to do the work they don't understand, or even if they do understand it, they don't take the time to stop and architect the problem. I've had amazing output from Claude Code, but apparently a lot of devs feel it is inadequate, some people it seems want the AI to code it perfectly in one shot, I go back and tell it what to fix, to add tests, to not change existing tests, etc.

It really depends on your goal. If your goal is to spend the evening coming up with funny things to say with your friends, then you shouldn't use AI. If your goal is to finish the t-shirts so that you can move on to the next topic in organizing a very complex event like a marathon, then perhaps you should use tools. Using AI tools isn't a problem. It's lack of care and thoughtlessness. That is the problem. That's always been the problem. AI didn't create it, nor is it making it worse.
I think this is part of the issue. Most activities can be divided into two categories (obviously this is only one of many different ways to categorize):

1. Things which are done primarily to accomplish a specific goal

2. Things which are done primarily for the joy of doing them.

Many tasks have aspects of both of these things. Automation, in all it's forms, is a way of maximizing the first, often at the expense of the second. When a new category of task first falls to automation, I think it takes a while for us to figure out how to pursue it solely for the second, but the two can co-exist. Backyard gardening and industrial agriculture both have their place.

Right now, coding and tech is, seemingly, in the middle of that transition. It's going to take a while before people learn to separate the two kinds of goal I think.

I enjoy playing with Lego. I would never use automation to do that for me. But, I wouldn't look down on someone who just wants pretty finished lego sets on their shelf without having to build them, and used automation (or hired someone or whatever) to build them.

I don't have patience for stuff like sewing or needle work. If I could automate that I would. But I know people who could spend hours on needle point or cross stitch or crocheting.

I also don't have patience for cooking or meal prep, even before AI. I'd batch cook protein and veggies and rice and we'd eat that for several days. AI has actually helped me streamline this in this regard, and it even helped me plan a special meal once a week that isn't just "eat for sustenance."

So I guess my point is. Automate the stuff you don't love. And spend more time on the stuff you do love.

>but the two can co-exist.

Experience with modern society has shown that "third places" and human interactions get mowed over when you let algorithmic engagement take over. As I understood GP's point, the whole point of the "words on a shirt" was to get together as a group and attempt to form bonds, and by handing the task over to chatGPT they failed to do that.

Technically you can imagine a future where people use chatGPT "in moderation", but in practice they'll use it for everything and spontaneous/creative "hanging out" will suffer as a result.

Maybe just don't make the t-shirt at all. You're going to put off half your audience with your slop logo anyway.
Examples like yours and the author's don't convince me. It seems like a lot of what people are "missing" from the AI process is the social aspect which is largely a side effect in these examples. For instance, finding out that someone's relative had cancer after asking for help with a recipe.

Getting an internet recipe from AI doesn't stop you from reaching out to your friend and finding out if they are going through anything, if anything it frees you up to do exactly that.

Same with this t-shirt slogan example. What you miss is the group activity and the spontaneity. But you can still do this without it being a side effect of a business objective. You can still talk to your friends, and with AI making everything faster you can talk to them even more now.

I was randomly generating ideas (and stealing them!) long before AI existed. And I remember in group projects at uni we'd use a "cool company name generator", back in the early 2010s. All the ideas it gave us were shit and we came up with one on our own.
The only reason to put a funny slogan on a shirt is as a reminder of an in joke or the shared process of coming up with the slogan.

It's like we no longer understand the purpose of language itself: to get thoughts out of our head and share them with other people.

In general, AI is as impactful as any technology can be. However, for those of us who like to enjoy the process (the act of gathering the info, structuring them and editing them), whether it be writing code, or writing in general, there's a joy in the act of building - straight up finished pieces of work handed over to you, robs you of this space to think and formulate your own views.

I do agree on the "existential crisis" part of it. At work, every time I see someone sign-off of something AI generated without much edits, I feel this fear that we're on to slippery slope where there's no turning back.

As an aside, “impactful” doesn’t necessarily imply that the impact is strictly positive.
All this happening with Mobile phones, and now AI reminds me of "Solarians" in Isaac Asimov universe:

https://asimov.fandom.com/wiki/Solaria

They were a race of humans that hated contact with other people. Each of of them lived in estates separated by acres of space.

We keep pushing our culture/society towards that sort of thing. We keep writing into to this "social" media (including what I am just writing) which is not social at all (but more akin to shouting opinions the middle of a mall).

We need to invent new reasons to be together.

I love people, I love spending time with them. Even though I am married, a parent, and living near to several relatives I still get lonely because of a lack of some forms of interaction.

At the same time, the form of interaction I'm missing is not "debating which font to use on a t shirt." I'm glad a robot can do that for me.

We need some genuine human creativity (or hell, use an AI if it gives you a good answer) for ways to get people to interact in joyful ways rather than over shared drudgery.

Let's go running together and let the computer make a t shirt to commemorate it.

I suppose we won't need to take pictures of ourselves together then either. Just let the AI remember it for us wholesale.

No, I reject that. If there are to be pictures and shirts, let them be real, or let us forego them. If it's acceptable to offload something like this to AI, maybe it wasn't really that important anyway.

> We need to invent new reasons to be together.

People are so accustomed to their community and purpose coming from their job that AI doing work on our behalf threatens not just our income, but our entire social identity.

> "debating which font to use on a t shirt."

The AI wasn't picking the font, it was picking the words.

It's called AI induced loss of meaning. It's hitting all aspects of human creativity. There are two aspects, with one being products/end results no longer has meaning/intention behind them, and two being human creators are lost when it comes to a sense of meaning from continuing to create human works and no longer feel meaningful fulfillment from creating (it feels almost pointless). If I got an AI shirt for an event it would cheapen the entire event and make it feel more soulless.
You did not do the work, why should you feel any ownership of it? You asked someone else to do it, they did it, and you used the result. You could have just as well used Fiverr.

But you're right to have an existential crisis if you're in the creative industry, we all have that capable someone else on our phones now for $20/month.

Yup. A part of us is dead forever, and future generations will not feel the change.

That doesn't mean AI isn't a net positive (I won't comment on whether or not it is), but this is probably the most visible, simple, undeniable downside.

Had a similar experience with one of my classes where my classmates decided to use chatgpt to brainstorm a group project. Felt very disconnected with my peers and the group project itself for the rest of that class.
You have this feeling only because you have something to compare it to, the new generation don't have that "problem", they will only know AI. The future is bleak.
> ... we just prompted ChatGPT and chose one of the results ...

Notice how the blogger simply calls it "Chat".

  and feeding them into Chat
  or Gemini
  or Claude.
Friends and family who are largely non-technical have referred to ChatGPT as Chat for at least a year.

I admit I was struck when I first heard someone use that shorthand in conversation at a party. It was the moment I knew that for better or worse LLMs use had permeated deep into regular life.

Poetic licence, it's poetry or poetic prose and not some random blog post about LLMs
It also feels like stealing. You prompted it but the result is not yours. Likely also because AI was trained on data stolen from others.
Find satisfaction doing something else. What is this soul vs machine obsession?
For me the rule now is…use AI to analyze and summarize (but check it like a hawk). However, after some initial experimentation to see capabilities, I refuse to use it to create anything new.

It’s certainly on the surface impressive, but when I dive into the details of what it creates, the slop becomes so apparent I cant unsee it and it distracts me.

Our society does not value originality. We value predictable cogs that, more importantly than anything else, are easily replaced. Far as I can tell the billionaires are modeling us something like a termite colony to work for them.
I salute your introspection. In my mind, it is better than the alternative cope.

My wife has an ongoing frustration with a colleague who has adopted the mindset, "I reviewed it, so I wrote it". I guess he must sleep well at night, and probably votes in the "AI gives me superpowers bloc", but it is pretty apparent he doesn't really review it much either, because it is full of flaws and absurdity.

> so I had some kind of existential crisis

realization was that you had been generating slop all this while before ai and somehow convinced yourself that it was original and human ?