[lukan]

"Reasons and rationalizations are a well barbed trap in Man’s mind."

Indeed, so have you ever considered, that the secret war in your mind, could be also caused by a myriad of other things?

So a secret holy war with (or against?) aliens or divine cosmic beings sounds more glamorous, than simply struggling with yourself, so you rationalized your own internal issues with a greater mission on the outside? Simply because it sounds better and therefore that makes you feel better?