[NIL8]

Unfortunately, I am very familiar with all that you just described. That was me not so many years ago. Something I came to realize is that taking care of your family means more than bringing home a big paycheck.

I would suggest teaching programming to those who may never have the chance to learn. It would benefit society and your own spirit. There's plenty of ways to go about this and many of them can provide a nice living.

Above all, I would suggest that you find one thing (outside of work) that makes you happy/fulfilled and jump headfirst into it. Community service, outdoor sports, painting, drums... whatever. You'll be less frustrated and more pleasant to be around at work and at home.