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Oh, brother -- you have no idea how much I needed to hear this. I find it absolutely wild to think that I am going through this. I heard about people going through it and I felt like it would never happen to me. And here I am. I have no self pity so your words, advice, and counsel, are music to my ears and I can't express how grateful I am to you for taking real time out of your day to help me out in this way.

I'm literally re-reading your response because for me, it is something I need to study and internalize. This is serious, and I know I need to make some serious decisions in my life and change my perspective on certain things as well.

God bless you friend! I'm curious. Are you located in the UK?

[salawat]

Alas, I am not. T'were the case, assuming that's where you are, I'd invite you over. The pond you'd have to cross however, probably renders such a thing inviable. I hesitated to even broach the subject on a public forum. Couldn't bring myself not to, though. Been there, man. It sucks. Sorry for long periods between replies. I've apparently been spitting too much fire lately for one of the mods' sensibilities here, so I'm apparently in the rate limited box. Now that I know that, I'd much rather spend a reply helping someone that may still be helped rather than waste it on one of the more unethical, irredeemable pseuds that tend to congregate here looking for people who don't call them out for being such. I'm generally a tolerant person who tries to err on the side of civility, and I don't mind a good bout of mischief, but there is a particular type of snake that lurks here that has just reached the bottom of the pit in which my tolerance resides.

[owlcompliance]

> I'd much rather spend a reply helping someone that may still be helped rather than waste it on one of the more unethical, irredeemable pseuds that tend to congregate here looking for people who don't call them out for being such.

Well, that certainly makes two of us man. I'd be lying to you if I said this was my first account lol. I'm in Illinois; I don't know what exactly made me think you were in the UK, but figured I'd ask.

This forum is definitely either abounds with people of a certain type of inclination, or is presided over by people with said inclinations; probably both. So I hear ya loud and clear.

I think you chose the right person to help; not, as we say in Spanish, because I'm the last Coca Cola in the desert, but because I like to be guided and taught. If someone calls me out on something I need to change, I only appreciate them more.

So again, I'm incredibly grateful for you taking the time, man. If you're in Illinois somewhere, let me know because I could use another hour or four of your wise counsel.