[JamesTRexx]

Hopefully, clearing of my browser cache. :-)

When I felt my conscious fading away from a heart attack two years ago, I thought "Ah, I guess I die now. Too bad I can't tell my friend to clear the cache as a last joke."

It confirmed I'm not actually afraid to die, just regretting for a moment before the void that I can't witness what'll happen to the world in the future.

[Imustaskforhelp]

> just regretting for a moment before the void that I can't witness what'll happen to the world in the future.

If I may ask, were you regretting about the decisions made in past or decisions that you won't see in future and jokes aside, what was the most important thing in that moment, was it about family, (does anything like random-thing-we-worry-about-for-too-long/work/tech/whatever-else even runs through the mind)?

[JamesTRexx]

I don't worry about decisions. Once they're made, they're made and life continues unless there's a good reason and possibilty later to change it. I just like to know where the world as a whole is headed to (before the inevitable supernova event, I'm just curious).

There was also nothing important coming to mind. Family and friends is a small group and I have every bit of confidence they'll do just fine without me. I just hope they'll have a fun party as a final goodbye to me. :-)

Besides, death is the ultimate "What, me worry?" as there is nothing left. Can't even experience the void we enter ( unfortunately because I'd like to experience my brain not thinking about anything at all for once :-p ).

[djmips]

Good news! I've been told our sun is too small to go supernova. ;-)

Glad you're still alive. I too find the most melancholy in not knowing - what happens next!

[tmtvl]

The sun won't go supernova, but it will become a red giant in about 5,000,000,000 years, which will have roughly the same consequences for life on earth.

[Imustaskforhelp]

To be honest, I can't quite predict if humanity truly survives within the next decade or two/three or a century. Let alone millions of times more than that amount.

We humans are very likely to be our own worst enemy. I would wish for the world to exist till the 5_billion year date that you mention.

[dceddia]

> I'd like to experience my brain not thinking about anything at all for once

You can! While you’re alive and everything! I’ve had this experience of few times of it being very quiet, and overall my brain is a lot quieter since then (and I see reports from people who’ve gone further/deeper; I get the sense the path is never-ending).

There’s a ton of resources and people out there that basically point to the same thing in different ways. Meditation is one of the ways but it’s not the only one. Some keyword soup if you want to go searching: jhana states, Jhourney, Art of Accomplishment, Joe Hudson, Zen, Buddhism, awakening, Michael Singer, Loch Kelly

There are varying levels of “woo” in this, and if you’re on the woo-averse side, Joe Hudson’s stuff is a good way in.

[47282847]

I didn’t think it was possible until I’ve experienced it myself. Magnificent. And a little scary too.

[jacquesm]

It puts 'glad you could make it' in a completely different light.

So, a heartfelt: Glad you could make it!

[JamesTRexx]

Thanks!