[batgaijin]

I am hostile because I put off seriously trying meditation for a long time in life simply because of how poorly it had been explained and how religions and hippies co-opted it.

[mcphilip]

Religion co-opted meditation? Now that's an interesting take... How then did meditation originate if not in the context of the religions that originally incorporated it?

[biscarch]

It sounds like you let other's understandings create your own, instead of using your own interests to drive your understanding.