[beeburrt]

I'm sorry you're struggling bro. I am. I don't have anything more meaningful than that to say though. Maybe you could try prayer? I know for a fact that our Lord and Savior loves you and cares about you very much. I'm serious.

[owlcompliance]

I appreciate it, brother. I will pray. My heart goes out to you for the support. God bless you. Compared to other people's problems, my problems are nothing. So I'm still very grateful for what God has given me. But I'm human, so things like what I described still catch me completely off guard. But life goes on.