[lukol]

#1: You do not want randomness. You may believe you do until the Titanic crashes into your front yard and your significant vanishes into thin air. You want quite a lot of predictability, up to a degree where it might not even matter if things at the lowest level of existence are not perfectly deterministic.

#2: What's so bad about thinking about life as an exciting rollercoaster ride? The tracks are laid but the ride is still fun.

[kikokikokiko]

If everything is deterministic, i.e. determined, there's no free will, so you/I are just a NPC. I prefer to live in a universe where my conscious decisions matter, or at least can't be predicted beforehand.

[diacritical]

Randomness doesn't imply free will. What if you/I are NPCs that just roll the dice before doing something? It's not you that chose the outcome, it's the dice, i.e. the laws of physics.

I don't know how free will could actually work with any kind of universe governed by a set of laws, whether they include randomness or not. So I don't believe in it, but of course in my day to day life I act as if it exists.

Yet I don't know how qualia or subjective experiences could actually work with any kind of universe governed by a set of laws, whether they include randomness or not. But I believe I have this subjective view of the world that doesn't seem to be explainable with a set of equations.

So it's weird. At least philosophy and science agree that.

[firebot]

Compatibleism is when you have both free will and determinism.

What you seem to prefer is libertarianism.