May I humbly suggest taking a breath or two? It is extremely taxing mentally to select strangers to tell you don’t trust them in an imaginary crisis. (Especially ones on a tech discussion board! Especially just because they noted there were no negative comments and only fawning ones! Especially when you think fawning feels fine in a crisis!)
May I pull you aside and suggest you take a few breaths yourself? If you're finding typing half a sentence on a keyboard taxing, perhaps consider getting some support.