It's so true it hurts.
If you are new in any infra/platform management position you will be scared as hell this week. Then you will just learn that feeling will just disappear by itself in a few days.
Yep, when I was a young programmer I lived in dread of an outage or worse been responsible for a serious bug in production, then I got to watch what happened when it happened to others (and that time I dropped the prod database at half past four on a Friday).
When everything is some varying degree of broken at all times been responsible for a brief uptick in the background brokenness isn't the drama you think it is.
It would be different if the systems I worked on where true life and death (ATC/Emergency Services etc) but in reality the blast radius from my fucking up somewhere is monetary and even at the biggest company I worked for constrained (while 100+K per hour from an outage sounds horrific - in reality the vast majority of that was made up when the service was back online, people still needed to order the thing in the end).
When everything is some varying degree of broken at all times been responsible for a brief uptick in the background brokenness isn't the drama you think it is.
It would be different if the systems I worked on where true life and death (ATC/Emergency Services etc) but in reality the blast radius from my fucking up somewhere is monetary and even at the biggest company I worked for constrained (while 100+K per hour from an outage sounds horrific - in reality the vast majority of that was made up when the service was back online, people still needed to order the thing in the end).