[exodust]

You've moved the posts from "watching youtube" to "searching youtube", then added something about my emotional state.

Doesn't surprise me you don't want to expand further, since you have nothing to expand. When the craftsperson makes a tutorial video, complete with close-up shots, and organised edited presentation, with more than one take on their side, it can be superior to going to their workshop. Both can be useful, but your argument that "youtube" is disqualified from offering value to those wanting to observe mastery, is a broken argument. Instead of running away, why not admit your error?