[ecoled_ame]

How old are you? I am 34 and was recently reading my journals from college when I was ~21. I was continually lamenting my laziness and lack of direction, filled with worry too. I had high aspirations but no clue how to get there. Proceed to 10 years of absolute failure but learning the value of a determination to persist. Now happy with a mid-level job that I worked so hard to get, nowhere near the PhD or MBA friends I have, but that’s okay. Living in the middle of nowhere and that’s okay. Realize I can always get a job at a restaurant and at least pay rent. Idk, just hang around and keep trying and lower your standards. Maybe get away from your parents so you are forced to be independent.

[justanything]

I am working on the determination aspect but it is so slow and frustrating, plus any time I am learning, I get flashbacks of my own failures and also thoughts of how everyone else is so much ahead.