[spaceprison]

There’s more to life than money, this is why your parents are willing to “waste” it on you.

When I was in a similar rut/loop the best thing that happened to me was when I finally stopped trying to keep up appearances, got honest and asked for help.

It was embarrassing to finally humble myself to ask for help, luckily embarrassment isn’t life threatening, just really uncomfortable for a minute.

The people in my life wanted to help me more than they wanted repayment. They helped in finding a gp the gp helped find a psychologist and then they all helped find a psychiatrist.

[justanything]

There is no meaning to life, the only meaning I can have is family and money. I failed one and the other I can't get