[muzani]

I had a friend. We made games as teenagers. Just strangers over the Internet nerding out on random things. We clicked real well, better than I do with many IRL friends.

But she lied to people. She was trans. People don't like being lied to. The LGBTQIA+ community defended her, until she became inconvenient for them and they ditched her. She fell in with the more militant crowd. Her social media presence became just full on hatred. I told she wasn't making friends that way; she insisted she's being an activist. We drifted apart because of this, but we still nerded out on random things every 3 years or so.

Once, she sent me a message out of the blue once saying that she appreciated me backing her in hard times. We chatted for two hours or so about liberalism and programming best practices. I then excused myself to get back to work.

That was the last conversation I had with her. She committed suicide publicly a few months later.

I don't think I could have done anything differently. Maybe I should have stuck up for her more? Or at least talked to her about random stuff. But if I had a one-shot time machine, I'd probably have prevented that decline rather than buying bitcoin.