[mergy]

Not joking and not being snarky here ..

Honestly, you might not be able to work for someone or something else. It's going to be hard for others to meet the levels it seems you detail in order for you to contribute and feel fulfilled. It reads like a very high bar or level to have to hit to unlock your commitment and efforts.

Be careful and aware many others might not want to take that on in the hope that they may achieve your needs. They may not want to even try.

I wish you well on your journey. This is your journey to walk.